- r.m. allen
- May 5
- 3 min read

You woke me up, not the siren, though I’m sure that with a few more seconds I would have been upright in bed right alongside you. “We need to get down to the basement.”
There is a certain hubris one develops as a (nearly) lifelong resident of the Midwest: there won’t be a tornado, but on the off chance there is, it wouldn’t dare come here. But, when that Wisconsin fool marries a Californian transplant, she at least has to play along when those tornado sirens go off, even when it happens at midnight. I put on my robe and my slippers and dutifully tromped down to the basement.
Oh, the laundry basket’s full. May as well sort it.
I pulled clothes and towels and dishcloths from the overflowing basket beneath the laundry chute, heaping them into piles at my feet. Beyond the thick walls of our basement I could still vaguely hear the shrieking that had called us out of our cozy bed. Is this a watch or a warning? I can never remember which is which.
At least one of the two dogs had followed me already; the other one came down the stairs with you. You brought our pillows and blankets too, and as I stood over my laundry piles I felt I had been rather foolish, coming down completely unprepared. But you didn’t demand I explain what I’m doing or tell me off for doing it. You spread out the blankets on the concrete floor of our basement bathroom so I could nestle onto my pillow with the dogs, as warm and cozy as one can be when lying beside a toilet during a tornado warning. While you watched the radar, I dozed off. In half an hour, you were waking me up again, letting me know it was safe to go back upstairs.
There was nothing you could have done if the tornado had come. The house would have splintered above us, the walls crumbled around us, the rains poured down over top of us. It all would have been over in an instant. Yet I suppose I had felt safe all along. You were there, there when I fell asleep and there still when I woke up. What, exactly, would I do without you?
Here's what I read, cooked, and created in the month of April.
What I Read
Five to Thrive: How to Determine If Your Core Needs Are Being Met, Kathy Koch (★★★★)
Scotland: The Story of a Nation, Magnus Magnusson (★★★★)
The Art of Clear Thinking: A Stealth Fighter Pilot's Timeless Rules for Making Tough Decisions, Hasard Lee (★★★★)
Peace Like a River, Leif Enger (★★★★)
If you want to hear the rationale behind my rating, head to my Goodreads for full reviews.
What I Cooked
Difficulty: ★★
Flavor: ★★★★
Keeper: Yes
I overbaked these a tad, so they were a little dry in the middle, but an easy and reliable dinner roll recipe that I will reach for again.
Sheet Pan Ranch Pork Chop Dinner
Difficulty: ★
Flavor: ★★★★
Keeper: Yes
I brought this over to my best friend, who is currently postpartum, and it was a winner by all accounts. I did use additional ranch seasoning beyond what the recipe called for.
Difficulty: ★
Flavor: ★★
Keeper: No
Turns out roasted radishes are not good.
Creamy Carrot Cake Coffee Cake
Difficulty: ★★★★
Flavor: ★★★★★
Keeper: Yes
I had made the pumpkin version of this coffee cake, so I knew this was going to be a project going in, and indeed it was. But, when I brought this to a family get-together, my 4-year-old nephew, who loves both coffee cake and carrot cake, was thrilled beyond words about the dessert situation, and that made it all worth it.
What I Created
Original blackout poem "Crucify Him"
More grad-school essay revisions
May your days be filled with beauty, and may your heart be filled with the willingness to see and give thanks for it.

